One Last Time

I know, it's the Valentine's day and I shouldn't be posting stuff like this but who cares?
You don't know when its the last time you're seeing someone. You don't know when its the last time you're seeing them smile or hearing their voice. You don't know when its the last time you're looking into their eyes and considering yourself lucky to be a part of their life. But when they are gone? That is all you can think about. 

As I've mentioned before, life is very unexpected and it surprises you all the time and today I watched it happen to me. I saw life turn in a way which made me rethink every possibility.

A few days ago, I had found myself missing someone who I thought never mattered to me. All along he had been around me and I had been too self-important to cherish his presence, but then, the realization had struck me. We had never talked much or known each other better but that day I had left everything to see him for that one last time. He hadn't noticed me as I had quietly watched him laugh and talk and then leave. I had walked away with a thought that there was a possibility that I'd see him again.After all we lived in the same town and hung out on Saturday afternoons in the same cafe. I just had that crazy intuition I was so confident about. Today I found out that he was leaving the town forever. That's when the world came crashing down. That's when I realized that it really had been the last time when I had seen him.

It was like waking up from a beautiful dream and realizing that it wasn't real. Isn't it weird that someone who never mattered enough suddenly started to cross my mind so often. For some reason it had been important to see him for the last time. And now as I look at the reality I wish that somehow, he doesn't leaves but ain't I being selfish then. He deserves what he's about to get and that will make him happy after all. As for me I'll just  hold on to all our sweet memories and most of all that memory of watching him for that one last time. . .