Farewell, Dear Love

A certain somebody has his birthday tomorrow and I'm not sure if I should make a call. You see we haven't talked in while and I am actually considering the possibility that he might have sort of forgotten about me. I mean we both moved on and burnt the bridges but for some reason I still think about him every now and then. I know its stupid to dwell upon your past but I just spent the entire day trying to think of a less-than-awkward birthday wish which brings me to wondering how some people always stay  in your life long after the final link between both of you has snapped.

I met him three years ago, things happened, words were said, and one day we just stopped talking. I can't seem to recall why the fuck did that happen or when exactly did it happen but now it sort of breaks my heart. He's like a ghost from my past.We all have those kind of people, don't we? The ones we never call, the ones we never smile at in hallways, the ones we pretend to not know yet every time we see them, we wonder if they still think about us. Thats him for me.

Sometimes I feels like my heart is in a cold war with my common sense. I keep telling myself that all that monologue is a waste of time and energy. I should forget about him and leave him where he belongs. In the past. But every time his favorite song comes on the radio or when I watch his life in pictures , I am reminded of all the good times we had together. 

I don't want him back, if that's what you're thinking. Because really, there's a reason to why we don't talk anymore. He was my past and things didn't work out because they weren't meant to. I was tired of picking up the pieces of the mess we made every time and ignoring how things were getting from bad to worse. It's time that I acknowledge the fact that not every person in my life is meant to stay forever. Some are just meant to run their course,  leave a scar, teach a lesson or maybe just leave me with a couple of happy memories. That guy left me with all these things and in a weird way, it all makes sense now. I just killed his ghost that was stuck in my life and in case you're wondering, I don't think I'll make that call.